I've never been a great advocate of change so it's no wonder my stomach was exploding with butterflies on my first day at work yesterday. It was a day I had looked forward to tremendously, towards financial independence and rebuilding my depleted savings account which was brutally savaged by my university tuition fees. Second day down and I have got to say I really hate this perpetual feeling of ambiguity and uncertainty. According to my recruiter, I was not supposed to come in for another two weeks because he is overseas during this period, but a communication breakdown with the HR department meant that I've got time to burn during this fortnight. I mean it's a good time for me to familiarize myself with my fellow colleagues and the way things work in the office but I just feel so helpless, not knowing what I should be doing next. And those who have worked with me before know that I like knowing what to do and being given the autonomy to do it, so this current phase isn't really something in my comfort zone. But like what Sab advised me, I should embrace this period of adaptation before work starts proper because by the time my workload hits me like a hurricane, I would be regretting my current complaints.

Anyway, I am glad to be able to find a job, with the employment market facing tumultuous times. Those instances whereby I was lamenting the lack of replies from my job applications have me grinning now at how silly I was to be worried sick all that time. The last two months of rest have been a godsend, but I am regretting not using that time to properly adjust my body clock, which explains the unparalleled fatigue I felt after work yesterday, having not woken up at such a godforsaken hour for ages. Luckily for me, I don't feel as tired today and I hope I'll get used to things as time passes. I am really excited to be establishing this personal milestone, and for Sab and I to be both working hard towards our future together.